The quote below could possibly give the wrong impression, since I’m posting it after Frank has been working at home for the last few weeks. So let me just clarify. This is quote is not about my marriage. I rather like having Frank around.
I came across the quote while reading the manuscript of a great new book by Kelly Kapic due out in October: God So Loved, He Gave—Entering the Movement of Divine Generosity (which you should add to your reading list!) and couldn’t resist posting it.
The quote comes from a conversation in Dostoevsky’s The Brothers Karamazov.
“I love mankind, but I am amazed at myself: the more I love mankind in general, the less I love people in particular…. In my dreams, I often went so far as to think passionately of serving mankind, and, it may be, would really have gone to the cross for people if it were somehow suddenly necessary, and yet I am incapable of living in the same room with anyone even for two days…. As soon as someone is there, close to me, his personality oppresses my self-esteem and restricts my freedom. In twenty-four hours I can begin to hate the best of men…. I become the enemy of people the moment they touch me. On the other hand, it has always happened that the more I hate people individually, the more ardent becomes my love for humanity.”
It is quite a dichotomy and one that I can relate to. People are often hurtful to the point of me wanting to throw in the towel and yet I find myself drawn to continuing to help or reach out. Sometimes I hate that in myself and yet continuing to love and reach out is what Jesus calls us to do.
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